Breathe By Me.

Breathe By Me.

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when I was drinking

late at night

in between getting up for swigs to

quell the shakes

I used to listen to your breathing

my love

and think

 

this is probably the last night

the last time he’ll breathe beside me

I love him but I’ll lose him

(and I did, for a while)

I had already lost so many things

and the few I had left

were perched, swaying

and the tipping, tumbling over the edge

into the abyss of loss

was inevitable.

 

now

when you fall asleep before me

I listen to your breathing

and it reminds me

to thank god, the universe, the powers that be

whatever I call the great beyond

for every moment

a life

a child

a love

a full heart

a roof

a second chance.

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